Yeah, it’s been awhile. No I haven’t been letting the funk get to me (too much anyway), but things have just been… okay. I guess.
I’m finally getting the financial situation figured out, slowly but surely. I won’t have to worry about paying back my student loans for awhile, thankfully. That’s because *drumroll* I’m going back to school!
I go back starting Monday. I’m getting my MA in Communications with a concentration in New Media and Marketing. The textbook for my first class is Intro to Mass Communications. Yeah, I think that’s about 17 years too late but whatever. That means I’d better get a high A in this class, right?
Some things have changed since I got my Bachelor’s three years ago. Papers are formatted differently and I’m going to have to re-familiarize myself with formal writing — but I think this is going to be amazing for me. I needed a new challenge, I needed SOMETHING to do — and this fits the bill. I’m anxious to start my classes. The best part (at least for my first class) is no group projects! God, those were the bane of my existence when I was getting my Bachelor’s. I’m just hoping when I eventually do have these hellacious projects that, because my classes are Master’s level, people will actually be willing to WORK. We’ll see. If the first couple of weeks of my discussion board is any indication, I may be asking for too much. When the instructor posts “thank you for putting your name in the subject line of your introduction” and you post “Introduction” as your subject line… it may be a long ten weeks. But hey — at least I’m not depending on them for my grade.
I’ve just been in a funk lately. A big one. And I don’t know why.
I love my job. It has been almost a year since I left TV news behind and I don’t regret that decision. At all. Working in a nonprofit that’s changing lives every single day is so fulfilling. Each day I go to work, I see the difference that I’m helping to make in someone’s life. Whenever a client shares their story, the transformation is unbelievable. Looking at the person they are today, I can’t even imagine them when they were in their addiction.
Scratch that. I know one thing that’s got me in a funk. Finances. I took a pay cut to take my job and while it has been worth it in other respects (physical and mental health, a huge reduction in stress, etc.), I’m struggling. Every time I think I get it figured out, I find out that I really don’t. My shopping habits don’t help and I am trying to change that. My student loans come due in January and I’m dreading that. As of right now, my payments would be approximately $400 a month. I can barely pay my bills now; I have no idea where that money will come from. I’m toying with the idea of going back to school. I’ve got a few months to figure it out, but that is one thing that’s weighing on me.
I know that in the grand scheme of things, my problems are minuscule. I see real problems daily. But my problems are my problems and somehow I have to find the strength and the courage to seek out the answers.
Well. Let’s see if this one sticks. I used to blog pretty regularly in the early 2000s, you know before Facebook, Twitter, etc. came along. I met some damn good friends in the blog community, many of whom I’m still close to today. But social media kind of got in the way of blogging along with school, work, and life.
I’ve had several iterations of blogs since then, mainly on Tumblr, but I wanted to give WordPress a go again. It was my platform of choice back in the day so here I am again.
A lot has changed. I’ve changed. But I want this safe place for me to let out all the feels and maybe even work on some of my writing. I don’t have high expectations that anyone besides me will read this — and that’s okay. I just need someplace to let it all out. We’ll see how long this one lasts. Hopefully this will be home for a while.